Perfect Imperfection Although I’m embarrassed to say I never knew You would have such a spot in my heart when we met. And just like us, our meetings, they got so complex. Convinced that our worlds were so different I resolved myself to the thought, “We would never be.” Because of my inflexible and stubborn ways most of what I felt I never expressed. And I know you clearly have two sides. So here is what I never said But always felt. Continue reading Perfect Imperfection
I was thinking the other day about decisions we make in our life. Some of us live out our life on television allowing everyone in on their process toward a big decision. I mean last summer most of the world watched as LeBron James played out his “Decision.” Yet to me, decisions are personal. We go back and forth weighing the pros and cons in our mind and then in most cases we decide. This brings me to a decision that I believe women experience in some way or another, “Will I have children?” Yes believe it or not, it … Continue reading Soapbox Wednesday: Does that make me less of a Woman
I love how God works just when you least expect it, he shows up and in this case he showed off… I had almost conceded that this was not my season for love outside of God, family and friends. Then God went and inserted “Al-Lateef Farmer” here; with “here” being my heart. So here goes…Long before the October night; when you gave up your spot so I could see Mos and Talib hit the stage. Long before the November evening; where Stevie Wonder played in the background as we sat in the car and talked well into the night. Long before the January afternoon; I came to pray for … Continue reading To My Husband to Be…. “When you find me”
Loves God loves you without question. So it’s your heart I search so deeply to see as God does. Given that God accepts you without complexities. I receive you as you are: HUMAN In the hopes to reflect the strength God has given you. Because God understands you without explanation. I listen to you religiously to acknowledge your needs In the effort to understand you as God does Trust that God always has a place for you. So I open up my heart for you to share. In a clear attempt to love you somewhat as God … Continue reading Loves
A desperate attempt to make poetry out of you. We greet each other like strangers. We have nothing to discuss, outside of what happened to us. Tired of discussions that turn into arguments “about what was done right and what was done wrong.” We barely speak or see each other as “home.” I promise you that I have searched and searched all night trying to recall the words I used to describe you when we first met. Believing that maybe those words would help me get that feeling of love back. I questioned how I framed … Continue reading Desperate
A Heart Captured I yearn for you in my thoughts. As if my mind has omitted all possible reasoning. When I see you I speak softly. Trying to hide my feelings such pain inside. You clearly maintain your stance. This is were you belong, you are not those other guys. I think to myself is this not my heart to keep closed and yours to leave alone? I try to shake loose your powerful grip. Stand firm to maintain my balance. And still you continue to reach out your hand. In hopes I extend mine. Is not this my moment … Continue reading A Heart Captured
Take Me Dancing Can we meet at an outside festival or at a place that has a dance floor? Can we let the drums and music move us or have the DJ play our song once more? I don’t wish to walk, talk, nor hold hands. A sister would simply like to dance. Can we wind and grind like we lost our minds? Lose ourselves in the music and … Continue reading Take Me Dancing
I see you from a far, I smile. I adjust my head to fall into your chest. A hug so easy and right. Being this close, I am forced to acknowledge your heartbeat. This much is true, I’ve been waiting for an excuse to be here with you. Yes, I know it has been way too long, for me to recall so much detail of your touch. As I slowly remove my head from your chest. I look up to be greeted by those beautiful brown eyes. Not to mention your scent is heavenly, just as I remember. I attempt … Continue reading Chance Encounter
You stand still I turn to catch a glimpse Aware of this motionless moment Reality, now seems to be a word I can’t begin to understand Our timing, always off just as I feared; What more is there for us to do? I tell you what I can’t afford. Is another broken heart. Your silence Tells me you recognize the truth. You don’t want to be the cause Of my broken heart. You stand still As if you have no idea What move to make next? I turn to catch a glimpse. you walk away; Finally, Movement. Continue reading Still
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